Practicing Yoga with The Beatles
Yoga inspires the courage to help us survive senseless tragedy
and create resilient, meaningful lives.
BY MAGAZINE CORRESPONDENT CATHY L
And it really doesn’t matter if I’m wrong
I’m right where I belong
I’m right where I belong
This is what I woke up with in my head yesterday, and pretty much sums up my experience with my Yoga Teacher Training, and my life, for the past 8 months.
You asked me about my karma yoga project, and I have to go back to the beginning of this journey, what propelled me to this place, and the importance of my 4 words.
My younger daughter lost a dear friend, who spent much time with our family when they were young, at the age of 29, following the birth of her beautiful baby boy, right after her second wedding anniversary, on June 13th last year.
Needless to say, Heidi’s death devastated my daughter Kate, but also had a pretty big impact on me. I vowed to take a good look at the life I was leading, and determine if I needed to make a change before the first anniversary of her passing. Your 4 word meditation came to me at the perfect time last September, right before my TT began in October, and helped focus me.
What I Did for Love
I found it difficult to do the training 150 miles from home every other weekend, work full time, and feel as though I had anything left to give a karma yoga project, especially since I work in healthcare.
At Christmas time I helped support my favorite restaurant through these lean financial times by throwing my staff a party there, with the cost of admission being a donation to either our local animal shelter, Father John’s, or a check to Rolling Dog Ranch in Montana (check our their site, amazing people..).
I did the same for my personal holiday party-no hostess gifts, just included the shelter wish list with the invite, and took several bags of goodies there. Tonight I am answering phones at the local college radio’s membership drive-I am a member, and what better way to show my support than with time as well as $.
I still have a few hours to go (15 hour requirement), and I plan to finish that this summer down at our shore house, by either volunteering at the Brigantine Historical Museum (this way I learn more about my adopted home, as well as help out), or, since I admire the beautiful plantings around the island, the Garden Club is also looking for volunteers. I don’t have much of a green thumb, but I can certainly pull weeds!
I did have a point in my training where, I must admit, I HATED yoga.
I was tired of going to classes to log in hours, I was tired of trying to analyze classes, I just wasn’t enjoying any of it. Thankfully, this has passed, and I am once again able to go to a class and lose myself in my breath, and be thankful for this body, despite the fact that it still can’t do some asanas, and my mind won’t let me give in to others, Vrschikasana in particular : ).
A Change Will Do You Good
I also discovered I am tired of being “the boss” here. I spent many nights waking up worrying about staffing (too much work, too little staff and too little work, sending people home, whose husband is out of work, who can’t pay their mortgage, how will what I do affect them) and yoga asanas, sequences etc.
I gave notice here, my last day of full time work is June 4.
I can’t tell you what a relief this has been, now I am only dreaming of yoga sequences, and this will end after I teach my 2 classes on 5/27 and 5/28.
What will I do after that?
I thought I would spend the summer at our beach house contemplating some novels, and volunteering, but that might not be the case.
I was assisting at a yoga class last Sunday, talking with a fellow trainee about her dad following his total hip replacement, and one of the students asked me what profession I was. It turns out there could be an opportunity for me to do some OT assessments at an outpatient facility in my town for a few hours a week. I truly believe that people are put in your path for a reason, so I put together a resume and sent it to her this morning.
I loved the 4 word meditation we did in Sept-but
I changed my words!
Never work well under pressure, and as I reflected on these words following the Sept Yin class, I had to tweak them some.
I found the word acceptance just did not have the effect on me I wanted – it seemed to make me feel as though I was giving up on something. I switched to contentment, which makes me feel more positive : )
I can’t believe how effective this is in allowing me to fall back asleep on those nights when a million things are traveling through my mind at 2:30 in the morning!
My 4 words-
family, freedom, clarity, and contentment
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